http://xre.rediffiland.com/Diary of rinki men-usI am lost in this world,
i lost my self before realising that,
now is it today too late to realise??
I am not angry with any one in the world,but only with me.
Does that mean i do not belong to this world?
Still the lump is not going down my throat,
Will water help?
i want to hide myself or vanish from here,
can anybody lend me a magic cloak like the one with Harry Potter?]]>Fri, 13 Jul 2007 08:39:57 +0530http://xre.rediffiland.com/blogs/2007/07/13/Lost.html Yesterday I was returning home in a bus, with ear phones in my ears and was enjoying the songs. (there is nothing else to do other than songs to keep you from being insane in the heavy traffic of Bangalore.).A respectable lady was sitting next to me and was reading a big novel. Some time later this guy and a fat lady came and sat on the seat infront of us.
The bus started moving .. .After some time i felt some thing falling on my feet and legs from the seat infront. I realised late that it was few drops of water .Within few seconds a lot of water fell along with a small noise similar to dropping of some object ...but by this time i had already moved my feet .Few drops of water fell on the respectable lady's feet also ,she too jerked and moved away her legs. we both found that was real water from the seat infront .
The guy infront turned and looked at us and gave us a very sweet smile. I didn't had any clue to how to respond. I looked down at the bus floor and found a feeding bottle which fell from the hands of the little guy. Me and the lady sitting next to me exchanged smiles of relief thinking it is water. But my doubt remained.
By this time our bus had stopped because of a traffic jam and this guy was standing on the seat and waving his hands outside the bus attracting attention of two wheelers stopped near to our bus.Almost all were responding back also.
This villian guy was able to bring smiles to many unknown persons.When his stop came ,while his mom was managing herself to balance with his and her other bag's weight ,he waved me also a cute bye and a smile.
And then I saw a part of his elephant stickered (or can be design)nappy out of his funny pants....
My doubts cleared ,what a relief . I was sure that he can never be a villian...:). ]]>Wed, 20 Jun 2007 07:47:35 +0530http://xre.rediffiland.com/blogs/2007/06/20/Doubtful.html Why are people too fat ? ok its their wish how to maintain their body ie, be an extra luggage or not..That is none of my concern.. These type of people(infact their extra pounds i can say ) become others head ache in certain situations. for ex; if we are using a bus transport system ,may be public or company transport ...
I feel these fatties(m/f) fall into 2 categories.
1 . We cant manage ourselves, u carry a part of us. (99% of the fat people comes under this)
2. The decent ones(i can tell they are the extinct species or the rare ones) .

The moment these fat people get into the bus , i am sure almost all the normal people who has an empty seat next to them , start praying, "today not me god" from the previous experiences. Unfortunately some times god just wanted them to occupy the seat next to us.. don't know why??
These people somehow drag themselves infront of the seat and they never sit down ,"they drop down" to the seat . And their bum exactly landing on your lap,the next step is u'll somehow struggle and some how move the weight on your thigh or part of ur thigh(especially if the other person is of same gender) and will be about to relax .
Suddenly u r gasping for air , u'll find that u can't breathe any more. Part of their hand exactly from shoulder bone to the elbow ,will be congesting our chest ,lung cage..oh mi goddd ....save me... and they will be using us as the arm rest which is just a bit forward from the body rest part of the seat ,for the rest of the journey.
(my experience) I felt like pushing the sack down on the floor ,but didn't do it ..dear lady, dont u realise that im a living being who needs to breathe??? after requesting her to move her hand .. i was able to breathe ..thank god.. Next is the worst part ..the fatty starts sleeping ....that means her whole body not only hands are on us.... " Punch her" . shut up u inner voice.
In the very fresh morning itself , they sap our energy ,i dont know what all emotions pass through my mind .

2. Now the decent ones they are the ones who are aware of their body .They gives us space to breathe and live. May God bless them..

]]>Thu, 19 Apr 2007 07:32:29 +0530http://xre.rediffiland.com/blogs/2007/04/19/Let-me.htmlMe came back after few days vacation ,feeling quite happy ,quite light...
Collegues as always curious about my sudden disappearance,..pounced on me for sweets , an unwritten custom among my collegues that who ever takes more than 1 day of leave have to return with sweets for them.They just dont bother whether the person went to attend a funeral function or coming after some treatment ...its them and they wanted the sweets. It no more troubles me... its the new me..

May be its true that the emotions of the heart reflects on our face and they found my face was really peaceful...
Actually i went to know the god more ,for these few days ,and inner peace came by itself. And am really experiencing some sort of inner love and happiness,some feeling of goodness internally and externally. I just cant imagine that i who was burdened with work pressure and my mind was full of depressing thoughts and hatred, and was like a balloon going to burst any time, is feeling very light ..the secret is that i gave all my burdens to the almighty. It really helps... Just wanted to tell the world that i am happy .. . I feel we should turn to GOD once in a while before we are completely lost in this world... no before the world eats us up...


]]>Mon, 12 Mar 2007 14:04:19 +0530http://xre.rediffiland.com/blogs/2007/03/12/Prayer-lightens-the.html
Imagine you are at an Airport. While you're waiting for your flight, you notice a kiosk selling cookies. You buy a box, put them in your traveling bag and then you patiently search for an available seat so you can sit down and enjoy your cookies. Finally, you find a seat next to a gentleman.

You reach down into your traveling bag and pull out your box of cookies. As you do so, you notice that the gentleman starts watching you intensely. He stares as you open the box and his eyes follow your hand as you pick up the cookie and bring it to your mouth. Just then he reaches over and takes one of your cookies from the box, and eats it! You're more than a little surprised at this. Actually, you're at a loss for words. Not only does he take one cookie, but also he alternates with you. For every one cookie you take, he takes one.

Now, what's your immediate impression of this guy? Crazy? Greedy? He's got some nerve? Can you imagine the words you might use to describe this man to your associates back at the office? Meanwhile, you both continue eating the cookies until there's just one left. To your surprise, the man reaches over and takes it. But then he does something unexpected. He breaks it in half, and gives half to you. After he's finished with his half he gets up, and without a word, he leaves.

You think to yourself, "Did this really happen?" You're left sitting there dumbfounded and still hungry. So you go back to the kiosk and buy another box of cookies. You then return to your seat and begin Opening your new box of cookies when you glance down into your traveling bag. Sitting there in your bag is your original box of cookies still unopened.

Only then do you realize that when you reached down earlier, you had reached into the other man's bag, and grabbed his box of cookies by mistake. Now what do you think of the man? Generous? Tolerant? You've just experienced a profound paradigm shift. You're seeing things from a new point of view. Is it time to change your point of view?


Many a times, we are clouded by our own instincts and predispositions. These hamper our relationship with our peers, subordinates and superiors. Try to be non-judgmental and look beyond the obvious.

]]>Tue, 16 Jan 2007 14:53:28 +0530http://xre.rediffiland.com/blogs/2007/01/16/Paradigm.htmlI don't have any work today . that means im sitting idle. My brain is also idle . so naturally my brain is going to be the workshop of devil. Im feeling sleepy...yeah if I sleep how can devil invade my brain.???
Wow, y I had not thought about it earlier?? On this day when half of my friends are sleeping in their house due to a government holiday im also sleeping in the office ,in sense sitiing and sleeping with my eyes open. I stumbled upon a dilbert website a few minutes back.it was too good. Every comic strip in that makes sense. May b I was too much into the comic that I don't know when I started to doss off. My boss landed into the office just now.what a time to come !! perfect !! there wont b much difference even if he comes earlier also . He is just going to check his mails and some websites if those people have done some work on it and updated those. And thanks to him coz once in a while we all get a link on some subjects to improve the productivity and quality.
Tune: jeena yahan,marna yahan ....
]]>Mon, 15 Jan 2007 16:45:13 +0530http://xre.rediffiland.com/blogs/2007/01/15/Idle.htmlWhen I was a kid there were so many books at home, and I was vivid reader . As I grew up these books kept on increasing. Many a times I had come upon a particular line in books/articles that " in search of myself/self discovery / purpose of my life" or the words which meant the same. At that age I tried to reason whether I know myself or not. The answer was "yes" ,my life always had a path ahead I know very correctly where it needs to be gone and what I had to do at that time. The answer was so simple as a kid as the sole job was to study and enjoy and think when this studies wil finish?? I never had thought in my wildest dreams that there will be a time when I will trying with all my might to find the purpose of my life.It seems the path which were always infront of me to travel with out any second thoughts came to an abrupt end. Here after landing into a good position in one of MNC im still wondering why im here? And how far I can go and for that whom I should please?? I live like a zombie these days . The path which I came was absolutely not smooth ,I fought, struggled and worked hard to reach here.But still, the path was there . Suddenly the path seemed to be disappeared and im left infront of a dead end. But im still very young and know that I have a long way to go "miles to go before I sleep" .but when the road infront of me disappears how will I travel? .....
Here I heard the following line from my alter ego .
I will not use the road to travel ,I'll travel by air.
so unfair :(
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